Cranberry Sauce

Here I am, in my favourite cosy corner of the world. Costa coffee, all by myself, with a laptop and internet. It's the weekend. I owe nobody nothing, people around me are reasonably ok... and thus, life is pretty much ok. It's Christmas time again, and the magic is in the air. I wonder how the Westerners have managed to preserve the sacred festive spirit of Christmas through all these years.. through globalisation and capitalism, the location of Santa Claus has still remains the best kept secret in the world... impossible to decipher one would think, until about 10. The world more or less speaks the same language... and manages to communicate and share through linguistic and cultural barriers. Things just work. Life always moves forward, despite the odds and sometimes dire circumstances. In the end, what really matters? Smile, love, happiness, joy of living, living and sharing the moment. That's what they all say, that's what I feel too, after being through a fair bit.

I am Strong, powerful, confident, untouchable, invincible.. Today. I punch my fist in the air of jubilation, victory, glory.. Today. I am unbeatable. I am the best.. Today. The fabric of the universe flows by me, easily.. Today. I am supreme. The ultimate. The best EVER. Today. I have no enemies, I am too strong for them.. Today I am full of myself and I know it. But there isn't a thing anyone can do about it.. Today. There will never be another man as talented, as skillful, as resourceful as I am.. Today. I am in awe of my own capability.. And deliverance.. Today I am better than anyone can ever be.. Today. I am the best there ever will be.. Today. I smash records for fun.. Today There's just no stopping me. Today I will be an example to everyone that ever tries.. Today I do what I want, when I want.. Today I cannot possibly do anything wrong.. Today Tomorrow I will try again.

Filling itself in a loop, I go and come inside and outside of myself I am complete I belong I have home I will always have home (I believe) I don't need to fight anymore, or to prove I am not ashamed, guilty, afraid I am in harmony I feel the fabric of the universe.... gliding through my fingers, gently flowing across my body, and sometimes hurriedly. I feel rested and resting. Vitalised, full of energy but relaxed, that I could sleep I would rather savour awakening than sleep Right now life is worth living, experiencing, goals worth achieving. The reward feels real aand tangible. I might be able to access alternate dimensions while being here. Today I could even get enlightened. Today anything is possible, and everything is ok Today I feel royal love Love is the elixir of life, the fountain of youth and vitality Someone has finally open the door to my love I can now love myself as much as I can love her I can be free In this moment, everything is ok You have

It flows through you, inside and out... everything in between it's warm, sometimes hot it gushes, flows, churns This warmth could melt anything in it's way Oh this heat will burn my insides away This must be love No I haven't felt this before I'm nervous but not scared I'm anxious but not tense I'm gasping but not breathless I'm writhing but not hurt This must be love I feel purged, cleansed redeemed, resurrected fresh, rejuvinated bright, incandescent captivated, overwhelmed This must be love Logic doesn't make sense But I don't care I'm feel at home far away from home Home now could be anywhere There's no stopping us now This must be love I'm defenseless, I choose not to fight I don't feel the need to hide I'm not guilty, I'm not afraid I'm ready for whatever lies ahead This must be love The fluid of life runs through my veins A perfect synchrony in my heart and head Yes this must be

Listen man  you've got to swing when you're winning When the moment feels right You've got to capitalise When you feel the fabric of the universe laid bare You must identify it's every detail, learn every groove, feel the intricacy When you feel the force of life gushing through your veins You've got to let it run wild and guide you, become you, let loose When you feel the animal unleash, you must let it find it's prey. It's ok to feel strong It's ok to feel powerful It's ok to feel invincible It's ok to win Man, when the moment comes, you must be willing to let it in. You may stand tall enough ...and find the world crumbling below you You may find the world bow at your feet Don't fear, don't retaliate Just feel your fear, your energy Let your passions breathe..... Swing when you're winning, it's not going to happen all the time cease the moment when it's yours etch it into your memory, feed the e

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