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(Image credit: OkCupid blog) This model explains preferences for dating, relationships, sexual activity and even friendships. It's a macro level analysis - individual differences/preferences would always exist. After all, that's what saves the world from being completely deterministic, and people being robotic and completely predictable! Terminology: Agent (n). A person in the system Mate (n). A prospective partner Score (v). To gain access to, as desired (i.e. for dating/sex/marriage/offspring) Statement: There exists a definite, indisputable dating economy, or System. Everybody has a market value (or level). This is based primarily on looks (fitness, attractive features, visibly health and radiance) but also on wealth, intelligence, wisdom, degree of self actualisation, and even environment of residence. Agents typically like to go for a mate ABOVE their own level, and tend to be dismissive about the ones below them. Often agents (esp males) tend to be ambitio...

(The views represented in the following post are personal, subjective and fluid. No offence is intended.) Note To Self: People can be very diverse. If anything, the observable extremes have been stretched wider in Canada. I guess it's important to pen down thoughts when they come, given my memory. Best to showcase significant experiences, or risk losing them. I've lived a long day today, and interacted with multiple diverse personalities. I am floored by how different people here in Toronto have been, both good and bad. On the one hand there are the extremely friendly, outgoing and helpful - typical of North America really as I'm finding (not just in the US). On the other hand, in a brief period I've come across people that have given me rather bitter experiences; people that have been closed minded, racist, condescending, rude, arrogant, and deliberately perverse. Not all the same person of course. I have also encountered not one but two elaborate scammers, and ...

11:09 13/07/2014 Everything is what it is, and will be. Life is cool in the summers, hot in the winters. There's a lot of party, life is a reason to celebrate, be close to loved ones, cherish, share. Life goes on, smooth, unimpeded, without much challenge, notwithstanding the occasional hiccup that in the long run seems part of the design. Life is a pop song.. I hate pop. It takes a lot to love, to share. It's life's essence, its nectar they say.  The inventory of emotions repeats itself, the acute and the blunt ones, even boredom. It peaks and troughs, and cycles around again with some noise. Noise keeps us alive, guessing, curious. Sleep is fun.. it simulates all of this drama quicker, more efficiently, without the loss of energy, and it's so real. Food is good as well, unquestioned comfort and joy.

Here I am, in my favourite cosy corner of the world. Costa coffee, all by myself, with a laptop and internet. It's the weekend. I owe nobody nothing, people around me are reasonably ok... and thus, life is pretty much ok. It's Christmas time again, and the magic is in the air. I wonder how the Westerners have managed to preserve the sacred festive spirit of Christmas through all these years.. through globalisation and capitalism, the location of Santa Claus has still remains the best kept secret in the world... impossible to decipher one would think, until about 10. The world more or less speaks the same language... and manages to communicate and share through linguistic and cultural barriers. Things just work. Life always moves forward, despite the odds and sometimes dire circumstances. In the end, what really matters? Smile, love, happiness, joy of living, living and sharing the moment. That's what they all say, that's what I feel too, after being through a fair bit....

I am Strong, powerful, confident, untouchable, invincible.. Today. I punch my fist in the air of jubilation, victory, glory.. Today. I am unbeatable. I am the best.. Today. The fabric of the universe flows by me, easily.. Today. I am supreme. The ultimate. The best EVER. Today. I have no enemies, I am too strong for them.. Today I am full of myself and I know it. But there isn't a thing anyone can do about it.. Today. There will never be another man as talented, as skillful, as resourceful as I am.. Today. I am in awe of my own capability.. And deliverance.. Today I am better than anyone can ever be.. Today. I am the best there ever will be.. Today. I smash records for fun.. Today There's just no stopping me. Today I will be an example to everyone that ever tries.. Today I do what I want, when I want.. Today I cannot possibly do anything wrong.. Today Tomorrow I will try again.

Filling itself in a loop, I go and come inside and outside of myself I am complete I belong I have home I will always have home (I believe) I don't need to fight anymore, or to prove I am not ashamed, guilty, afraid I am in harmony I feel the fabric of the universe.... gliding through my fingers, gently flowing across my body, and sometimes hurriedly. I feel rested and resting. Vitalised, full of energy but relaxed, that I could sleep I would rather savour awakening than sleep Right now life is worth living, experiencing, goals worth achieving. The reward feels real aand tangible. I might be able to access alternate dimensions while being here. Today I could even get enlightened. Today anything is possible, and everything is ok Today I feel royal love Love is the elixir of life, the fountain of youth and vitality Someone has finally open the door to my love I can now love myself as much as I can love her I can be free In this moment, everything is ok You have ...

It flows through you, inside and out... everything in between it's warm, sometimes hot it gushes, flows, churns This warmth could melt anything in it's way Oh this heat will burn my insides away This must be love No I haven't felt this before I'm nervous but not scared I'm anxious but not tense I'm gasping but not breathless I'm writhing but not hurt This must be love I feel purged, cleansed redeemed, resurrected fresh, rejuvinated bright, incandescent captivated, overwhelmed This must be love Logic doesn't make sense But I don't care I'm feel at home far away from home Home now could be anywhere There's no stopping us now This must be love I'm defenseless, I choose not to fight I don't feel the need to hide I'm not guilty, I'm not afraid I'm ready for whatever lies ahead This must be love The fluid of life runs through my veins A perfect synchrony in my heart and head Yes this must be ...